Statement

A statement: I apologize Since September last year, I have slowly been going down the route of what I'd call insanity. Since then, I have unfortunately been getting worse and worse depression and anxiety.

I did what I could to combat this, I left 2024 in a somewhat decent state. Unfortunately, I then became extremely suicidal and as people know I intended to kill myself in March. My anxiety has gotten pretty bad in recent weeks, I tried my go at a relationship but this made me very unstable - sometimes I feel great and sometimes on the very edge of suicide. This is not good, I realise that. I have hurt several people around me and people within my businesses with this, I am sorry. This applies to everyone, I understand my erratic behaviour and instability has caused a huge amount of drama and concerns for people and I am sorry.

The hosts: I understand that I caused XEH to implode and that I ruined my reputation. I believe this was entirely my fault, I tried my old method of being the villain to put everything aside for a bit. This again caused issues for everyone around me. I'm sorry, I will do better. Octant also imploded due to my own mismanagement, I made several stupid decisions and made ZTL's entire network rely on a single VM, Octant's hosting was a mess internally and used 2 16GB UK nodes and ran XEH's dashboard with pretty much no changes. The quality of my hosts has been getting sloppy recently, I'm really sorry for this - my hosts used to be known for having fairly decent dashboards. I'm taking a break until June in hosting, there will be nothing from me regarding a new host. I think this is the best option.

I will get help. Thank you for bearing with me.